Jayden
My Joy 
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Love does not Envy
And I said college was a waste of time! This, my friends, is where my year of going to Christian college pays off! Interpretation of the bible had to be one of my favorite classes. I learned so much, and I was encouraged to dig deeper into the Word to find my truth. It taught me to really look at the meanings behind the words and why the interpreters chose to use the words they did. Sometimes, it really makes me questions why they used the word they did when translating the bible. Corinthians 13 is a good reason I do.
In many translations you will read "Love is not jealous," but that just doesn't sit well in me. The word I think Paul wanted to use was "Envy," because how can love not be jealous when, after all, our God is a jealous God! (Exodus 20:5) And if love is not jealous and God is love, the Scriptures totally contradict them self. But again, it's all in the translation and who translated it. The way I see it, of course love is jealous; just like God is jealous for the heart's of His people, should a wife not be jealous for the love of her husband?
The word "Jealousy" and "Envy" are two totally different things and mean two totally different emotions. Yes, they may sound very similar, and they often are used interchangeably; but more often than not they are used incorrectly. The way I see it, the word "jealous" should not be used in this scripture at all. As Wikipedia so beautiful puts it, the word "Jealous" means to fear losing something that one possesses to another person (a loved one in the prototypical form), while the word "Envy" is the pain or frustration caused by another person having something that one does not have oneself.
I have shockingly discovered that women are the most jealous creatures on earth! I don't care who you are or where you go to church, every woman has this gene, or whatever you want to call it, burned into their being. Some may display it more than others... but it's there. For example, when women buy the most up-to-date clothing and buy the most fashionable purses, who do you think they are trying to impress? Don't think for one moment its for their husbands or significant other... we are dressing to impress other women, our girlfriends! We want our friends to think we look trendy and cute, or think how lucky she is to have hair that will go wherever she wants it to. Ok, so am I the only one?
Unless you are a woman much like my mother, who truly believes that since she is beautiful on the inside, (which she is) there's no need to worry about the outside. She is who she is and she's proud of it! But, I know at some point in her life she did care about what cloths she wore and how she did her hair. But she will always be a woman who is happy enough on the inside to not worry about what PEOPLE think of her on the outside. She is the most amazing, talented, funny, caring person I know. But she has her moments too where jealousy hits. We all have different things that make us tick or cause an emotion in us.
Jealousy has always been an issue for me. I think it's triggered by low self esteem, but I'm learning each day that God only give you what you can handle. I don't need what the other girl has down the street, who knows, maybe she wants what I have! People always want what they don't have... but maybe if we looked at it as be thankful for what you do have, we wouldn't lead such jealous lives. You never know what a person has until you know the heart of that person.
In many translations you will read "Love is not jealous," but that just doesn't sit well in me. The word I think Paul wanted to use was "Envy," because how can love not be jealous when, after all, our God is a jealous God! (Exodus 20:5) And if love is not jealous and God is love, the Scriptures totally contradict them self. But again, it's all in the translation and who translated it. The way I see it, of course love is jealous; just like God is jealous for the heart's of His people, should a wife not be jealous for the love of her husband?
The word "Jealousy" and "Envy" are two totally different things and mean two totally different emotions. Yes, they may sound very similar, and they often are used interchangeably; but more often than not they are used incorrectly. The way I see it, the word "jealous" should not be used in this scripture at all. As Wikipedia so beautiful puts it, the word "Jealous" means to fear losing something that one possesses to another person (a loved one in the prototypical form), while the word "Envy" is the pain or frustration caused by another person having something that one does not have oneself.
I have shockingly discovered that women are the most jealous creatures on earth! I don't care who you are or where you go to church, every woman has this gene, or whatever you want to call it, burned into their being. Some may display it more than others... but it's there. For example, when women buy the most up-to-date clothing and buy the most fashionable purses, who do you think they are trying to impress? Don't think for one moment its for their husbands or significant other... we are dressing to impress other women, our girlfriends! We want our friends to think we look trendy and cute, or think how lucky she is to have hair that will go wherever she wants it to. Ok, so am I the only one?
Unless you are a woman much like my mother, who truly believes that since she is beautiful on the inside, (which she is) there's no need to worry about the outside. She is who she is and she's proud of it! But, I know at some point in her life she did care about what cloths she wore and how she did her hair. But she will always be a woman who is happy enough on the inside to not worry about what PEOPLE think of her on the outside. She is the most amazing, talented, funny, caring person I know. But she has her moments too where jealousy hits. We all have different things that make us tick or cause an emotion in us.
Jealousy has always been an issue for me. I think it's triggered by low self esteem, but I'm learning each day that God only give you what you can handle. I don't need what the other girl has down the street, who knows, maybe she wants what I have! People always want what they don't have... but maybe if we looked at it as be thankful for what you do have, we wouldn't lead such jealous lives. You never know what a person has until you know the heart of that person.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Too Long
I know, I have been gone for way to long and I feel so out of touch from the blogging world. Not only have I missed writing; I have felt a bit of sadness from not being able to express myself and write what's on my heart. I never thought I would feel this way about writing! Growing up, I would cringe at the thought of writing anything! My spelling sucks, and don't even ask me to check my grammar because even now I know there's comma's where there shouldn't even be comma's! My mom is the writer, not me. She writes with heart, soul, depth, humor and perfect punctuation! Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm terrible. I like to think I write with heart and soul, but unlike my mother, I lack self confidence in what I'm writing, find myself using run on sentences all the time, and use less than perfect punctuation. But I love it; and until someone shuts me down, or put another virus on my computer, I'm going to keep writing.
A lot has happened since I wrote last. My brother, Brent, moved in and is slowly making my attic smell like a teenage boy. Since he will be staying for a little while, he is making a bedroom for himself in our basement which will nicely turn into a playroom for Jayden when Brent moves out. While putting drywall up, he touched something in my breaker box that had quarter of my home unaccessible to electricity, this included the washer and dryer. Each day he assured me he would fix it. A day turned into two weeks and no clean underwear, so I had to call my daddy to the rescue. They worked on it all last Sunday and finally got it fixed! Brent is just to busy, and has too many things on his plate right now... not to mention a wedding in six months! One thing turned into another, and I think now, everything works fine. He keeps telling Jesse and I that he saved our lives; because if he didn't touch the breaker box and it didn't have to be fixed, then it would have ended up sparking, catching on fire and killing us all in our sleep! Yes, this was all said right before we went to sleep, thanks Brent! But all in all, he means well and the job was done.
We finally got our internet working again and electricity back into Jesse's office. So until my laptop is fixed, I'm stuck writing on my husbands computer. My sister was using my computer about two weeks ago and while using MySpace, she got a virus onto my laptop. Since everything is on my laptop, I kind of flipped out and thought my world was ending. But Jesse is slowly getting the virus off and hopefully it will be fixed soon.
I'm sure there is so much more to write about, but Jayden's nap time is almost over and I need to get some things cleaned up. I still plan to write more on 1st Corinthians 13, but a lot of my writings are on my laptop, so until that's back up and running, your going to have to deal with hearing my day to day life stories.
Until later...
A lot has happened since I wrote last. My brother, Brent, moved in and is slowly making my attic smell like a teenage boy. Since he will be staying for a little while, he is making a bedroom for himself in our basement which will nicely turn into a playroom for Jayden when Brent moves out. While putting drywall up, he touched something in my breaker box that had quarter of my home unaccessible to electricity, this included the washer and dryer. Each day he assured me he would fix it. A day turned into two weeks and no clean underwear, so I had to call my daddy to the rescue. They worked on it all last Sunday and finally got it fixed! Brent is just to busy, and has too many things on his plate right now... not to mention a wedding in six months! One thing turned into another, and I think now, everything works fine. He keeps telling Jesse and I that he saved our lives; because if he didn't touch the breaker box and it didn't have to be fixed, then it would have ended up sparking, catching on fire and killing us all in our sleep! Yes, this was all said right before we went to sleep, thanks Brent! But all in all, he means well and the job was done.
We finally got our internet working again and electricity back into Jesse's office. So until my laptop is fixed, I'm stuck writing on my husbands computer. My sister was using my computer about two weeks ago and while using MySpace, she got a virus onto my laptop. Since everything is on my laptop, I kind of flipped out and thought my world was ending. But Jesse is slowly getting the virus off and hopefully it will be fixed soon.
I'm sure there is so much more to write about, but Jayden's nap time is almost over and I need to get some things cleaned up. I still plan to write more on 1st Corinthians 13, but a lot of my writings are on my laptop, so until that's back up and running, your going to have to deal with hearing my day to day life stories.
Until later...
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