This past weekend, Jesse and I had a night to ourselves on Saturday night. Just me and him, some well needed quality "time-spent" together! Grandma and Grandpa Yacoe was super amazing to take Jayden for the night and give us hubby and wife time. I was so excited, not only to have a night out with my hubby, but I was pretty darn excited about sleeping in the next morning! All you mom's out there have got to know what I'm talking about, right?!?! For me, I always ask myself what time Jayden is going to get up; but this time. I didn't even think about. It was so sweet!
Well, we started our evening out meeting some family and friends and Hibachi's for dinner. We were celebrating my brother, Brent's 25th Birthday. It was nice. We pretty much had our own private room, but the best part was that we got the WHITE guy as our chef! I like to think that I requested him because as we were being seated I was make a fuss about him. Now, if you have never been to a Hibachi's it's a Japanese Steak House where they cook the meal right in front of you. Most of the time you have a Japanese chef, but Downingtown has a amazing white chef who is hysterical! So worth the money! It was a fun place with good friends, good eats, and good times!
Jess and I then went to see "I love you, Man." Very cute, but I'll let my husband tell you about that one. See his review of the movie on his blog.
So that pretty much was our night out on the town.
Not fancy at all, but just right for him and I.
I do have to say though I loved sleeping in...
I still missed Jayden. I couldn't image my life without him.
Oh yea, and we got to sleep until 10am on Sunday!!! Woo-Hoo!!! What a weekend!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Please Pray
It really sucks when you know there's nothing you can do to help someone you care about when something terrible happens, other than to just wait it out and pray for them. You always think there's more you can do, but really all you can do is pray.
My amazing baby sitter, Kim (who is normally all smiles and laughs) called me this morning at work around 8:45 in hysterics. My heart plummeted to my stomach and of course the first thing that came to my head was "what happened to Jayden?!?" She quickly pulled herself together and told me that she was going to have to drop Jayden off at work because her father just had a terrible accident and she had to go to the hospital right away. With my heart still in the pit of my stomach, I told her it was fine and to bring him right over.
I first called my BFF to see if she could come pick him up and watch him until I got off at 2, but was unable to get a hold of her. Then my brain decided to turn on for the morning and thought to myself; why did I call Sue? My parents live less than 5 minutes from here and could get him much faster. For some reason I had a major brain fart, it's defiantly Monday all right! I called my mom and she was just about to head out the door with my sister Leigha; I told her the situation and she quickly yelled down to my dad "Attila... you need to go pick up Jayden at Lyryn's work; there was an emergency!" You want a job done... call my mom! :)
Kim got to work pretty quickly and was completely distraught and crying. I hadn't seen her this way since she left for FDIC two years ago and that was just because she was leaving her kids for a week. I felt terrible! I just held her while she gave me Jayden, the only thing I could do was start praying for her. I had no idea what I said, words just came out of my mouth. I do remember asking for peace and protection and that strength would fill Kim and her family. I looked into Kim's tear-filled eyes and said "Pray, Kim!" She looked down and said she would, than slowly walked back to her car.
Here I was at 9:15 in the morning holding my child in the TFS parking lot. At that moment I wished I could have gotten into my car and just taken Jayden home. Feeling beyond stupid that my child had to be brought into work, (not that is was my fault or anything) I kept him the the corner so not to disturb anyone or even let anyone know that he was there. He was VERY good and played with Steve Wit and a sunny patch of rug until my dad got there. He even whispered when he wanted to tell me something! He made mommy very proud!
So for now, all I know is that Kim's dad was in an accident. I have texted her and I'm waiting for an update! I'll let you know more when Kim calls me back, but for now please keep her in your prayers. Pray for comfort and peace and that everything will work out.
Till then...
My amazing baby sitter, Kim (who is normally all smiles and laughs) called me this morning at work around 8:45 in hysterics. My heart plummeted to my stomach and of course the first thing that came to my head was "what happened to Jayden?!?" She quickly pulled herself together and told me that she was going to have to drop Jayden off at work because her father just had a terrible accident and she had to go to the hospital right away. With my heart still in the pit of my stomach, I told her it was fine and to bring him right over.
I first called my BFF to see if she could come pick him up and watch him until I got off at 2, but was unable to get a hold of her. Then my brain decided to turn on for the morning and thought to myself; why did I call Sue? My parents live less than 5 minutes from here and could get him much faster. For some reason I had a major brain fart, it's defiantly Monday all right! I called my mom and she was just about to head out the door with my sister Leigha; I told her the situation and she quickly yelled down to my dad "Attila... you need to go pick up Jayden at Lyryn's work; there was an emergency!" You want a job done... call my mom! :)
Kim got to work pretty quickly and was completely distraught and crying. I hadn't seen her this way since she left for FDIC two years ago and that was just because she was leaving her kids for a week. I felt terrible! I just held her while she gave me Jayden, the only thing I could do was start praying for her. I had no idea what I said, words just came out of my mouth. I do remember asking for peace and protection and that strength would fill Kim and her family. I looked into Kim's tear-filled eyes and said "Pray, Kim!" She looked down and said she would, than slowly walked back to her car.
Here I was at 9:15 in the morning holding my child in the TFS parking lot. At that moment I wished I could have gotten into my car and just taken Jayden home. Feeling beyond stupid that my child had to be brought into work, (not that is was my fault or anything) I kept him the the corner so not to disturb anyone or even let anyone know that he was there. He was VERY good and played with Steve Wit and a sunny patch of rug until my dad got there. He even whispered when he wanted to tell me something! He made mommy very proud!
So for now, all I know is that Kim's dad was in an accident. I have texted her and I'm waiting for an update! I'll let you know more when Kim calls me back, but for now please keep her in your prayers. Pray for comfort and peace and that everything will work out.
Till then...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Breaking Through
Believing I can make it, even when there feels like no hope
Relying on the Father, even though I felt so alone
Enjoying the little blessing, even when I wanted to cry
Acknowledging there must be change in me, even when I felt I did nothing wrong
Kneeling daily at the foot of the cross, even when I didn't have the strength
Igniting new passions that I never knew I had
Never stopped loving, even when I felt there was no more love to give
Giving glory to God, when he would point me in the all the right directions
Talking to my God, even when I wanted to scream
Holding on tightly to my daddy's hand, even when I wanted leave and never come back
Realizing how Jesus speaks to me, even though I didn't want to listen
Obliterating all the lies in my life, even though I have believed them for so long
Uncovering what has been holding me back, even though I feel safe in that place
Giving all of me, when I wanted to be so selfish
Hoping for brighter days, even during the most terrible times of my life
That my friends, is me Breaking Through …
Relying on the Father, even though I felt so alone
Enjoying the little blessing, even when I wanted to cry
Acknowledging there must be change in me, even when I felt I did nothing wrong
Kneeling daily at the foot of the cross, even when I didn't have the strength
Igniting new passions that I never knew I had
Never stopped loving, even when I felt there was no more love to give
Giving glory to God, when he would point me in the all the right directions
Talking to my God, even when I wanted to scream
Holding on tightly to my daddy's hand, even when I wanted leave and never come back
Realizing how Jesus speaks to me, even though I didn't want to listen
Obliterating all the lies in my life, even though I have believed them for so long
Uncovering what has been holding me back, even though I feel safe in that place
Giving all of me, when I wanted to be so selfish
Hoping for brighter days, even during the most terrible times of my life
That my friends, is me Breaking Through …
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
What I Want to be When I Grow Up
For the past week, I have been having a really hard time trying to find a place for myself. I quiet frequently find myself asking “What do I want to be when I grow up?” I feel so dumb saying it, but I just don’t think I have figured it out yet. I always thought I knew what I wanted to be, but I’m beginning to think that it wasn’t something I really cared enough about. Wasn’t I supposed to figure this out five years ago? Shouldn’t I already know?
When I was little, all I wanted to be was a teacher. I was the girl who asked for those “teacher play kits” for Christmas. The kits that came with a chalkboard, report cards, stickers, all that fun stuff! I would play almost every day at my friend Jennie’s house and we would play school. Whenever anyone asked me what I wanted to be, it was a teacher. Looking back now, I think I must have been completely crazy! Teaching?!?!?! I would have to say teaching is most defiantly not a gift of mine. I get to frustrated, impatient and completely annoyed if people just don’t get it. There are some things I can teach in moderation, such as dance or maybe how to do something on a computer, but that too will bother me after a while.
During college I changed my major 4 times and got nowhere in the process. I have a million credits and not a thing to put them towards. I started out as secondary Ed major (craziness, I know), then moved to biblical studies, and then to social work and then my last move was to business. Obviously I had no idea what I wanted to be and have limited ability to make up my darn mind! So I guess to make sense of everything, I thought dropping out of school and getting married was a far better idea.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret most of the discussion I’ve made from then until now. I married my high school sweetheart and I’m a firm believer of “on the job training.” Yes, I could have made different choices in my life, but how different would they have really been? Would I still be questioning this very thing? Or would it have taken me longer to discover what has been pressing at my soul?
All I know is that I want to do something in my life that will bring me joy and be worth something! It has taken me a while to get to this point to even think that I am even capable of more; for so long I have only seen myself in someone else’s shadow. But I’m beginning to see new light and better days! I have dreams of being someone great, changing people’s lives and changing my own all for the glory of God. I no longer see myself in the shadow of others, but as an equal and someone who can stand her own ground.
So, what am I going to be when I grow up? That question has still not been answered, but I think I’m ok with this for now. I believe that God is slowly making me into what he has called me to be, and refining me each and every day to be the woman he is preparing me to be. I will fall and I will fail, (even make horrendous grammar and spelling mistakes in this blog) but my God will never lead me off the path as I continue to grow up. I know that someday, I’ll finally know what I’m supposed to be when I grow up!
When I was little, all I wanted to be was a teacher. I was the girl who asked for those “teacher play kits” for Christmas. The kits that came with a chalkboard, report cards, stickers, all that fun stuff! I would play almost every day at my friend Jennie’s house and we would play school. Whenever anyone asked me what I wanted to be, it was a teacher. Looking back now, I think I must have been completely crazy! Teaching?!?!?! I would have to say teaching is most defiantly not a gift of mine. I get to frustrated, impatient and completely annoyed if people just don’t get it. There are some things I can teach in moderation, such as dance or maybe how to do something on a computer, but that too will bother me after a while.
During college I changed my major 4 times and got nowhere in the process. I have a million credits and not a thing to put them towards. I started out as secondary Ed major (craziness, I know), then moved to biblical studies, and then to social work and then my last move was to business. Obviously I had no idea what I wanted to be and have limited ability to make up my darn mind! So I guess to make sense of everything, I thought dropping out of school and getting married was a far better idea.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret most of the discussion I’ve made from then until now. I married my high school sweetheart and I’m a firm believer of “on the job training.” Yes, I could have made different choices in my life, but how different would they have really been? Would I still be questioning this very thing? Or would it have taken me longer to discover what has been pressing at my soul?
All I know is that I want to do something in my life that will bring me joy and be worth something! It has taken me a while to get to this point to even think that I am even capable of more; for so long I have only seen myself in someone else’s shadow. But I’m beginning to see new light and better days! I have dreams of being someone great, changing people’s lives and changing my own all for the glory of God. I no longer see myself in the shadow of others, but as an equal and someone who can stand her own ground.
So, what am I going to be when I grow up? That question has still not been answered, but I think I’m ok with this for now. I believe that God is slowly making me into what he has called me to be, and refining me each and every day to be the woman he is preparing me to be. I will fall and I will fail, (even make horrendous grammar and spelling mistakes in this blog) but my God will never lead me off the path as I continue to grow up. I know that someday, I’ll finally know what I’m supposed to be when I grow up!
Psalm 73: 23-26
23 Yet I still belong to you;
you hold my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
leading me to a glorious destiny.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth.
26 My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever.
Friday, April 17, 2009
An Afternoon with Mommy and Aunt Susie
When my mommy got home from work she promised me she would take me out to play after I took my nap. So I was a really good boy and slept for three long hours.
Then my mommy came into my room and woke me up and said we were going to meet Aunt Susie at the park!! I love going to the park!
Mommy and Susie got Chick-Fil-A for dinner, but I was just way to excited to eat. I ate what I could but really enjoyed my juice box the most! For some reason the straw kept coming out, I thought it was pretty funny. Aunt Susie tried to show me how to put it back, but I just didn’t get it.
I don’t like to hold mommy’s hand so they got me a cool monkey friend who sits on my back and watch’s me for them, but for some reason I can only get a few feet away from them. I’m not happy about that… so I’m still working on that one…
Then we got to play on the playground!!! It was SO fun! My crazy photographer mommy wouldn’t stop taking pictures of me. It was like… goodness mom, give me a break, I’m trying to do my thing and play with other kids here…
Aunt Susie and Mommy let me run around, slide down the slide, and attempt to go in a tube… change my mind about going in the tube… (I was a little scared about the tube) Talk to all the cute little girls on the play ground. And so much more!!!
Then we walked up to the little kid (littler than me) playground. I played there for a little while, met this cool kid who wanted to help me on the blocks. Mommy and Aunt Susie talked for a little while and then I got bored.
Before we left I wanted to try the swings so Aunt Susie sat with me and swung. That was fun!
I had a really fun day! Thanks mommy and Aunt Susie for taking me to the playground today!
Love you!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Jayden Loves his Babysitter
When you think your day just can’t get any worse… God give you something to laugh at!
So I’m sitting at work pulling my hair out and all of a sudden get a text message from Kim. (Kim is a good friend that I use to work with, but she also watches Jayden sometime during the week.)
First Text
Subject: Who needs Toys?
Second Text:
Subject: Silly Day
I must say, it put a smile on my face! My little man brings me joy, what can I say?
So I’m sitting at work pulling my hair out and all of a sudden get a text message from Kim. (Kim is a good friend that I use to work with, but she also watches Jayden sometime during the week.)
First Text
Subject: Who needs Toys?
Second Text:
Subject: Silly Day
I must say, it put a smile on my face! My little man brings me joy, what can I say?
Monday, April 13, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Kate's Birthday Song
Kate has a birthday tradition with me; each and every birthday she writes me an amazing poem. So I thought that this year I would try to do the same, but instead of a poem I wanted to rewrite a song. I'm not nearly as talented as she is and this took me all of last night and today to come up with this. Not sure why this was so hard to do... but I did it!I know that this is three days late; but better late than never, right? The Balla family is celebrating her birthday tonight so... yea this counts! The song I rewrote was Bubbly, by Colbie Caillat. I know what our husbands think about this song, but I thought I would take a little stab at it.
Happy Birthday, Kate! I love you!
I'm so thankful you're my sister now
You're 24, I'll make a cake, let celebrate now
Where would I be without your bubbly face
You're someone I can never dare replace
Love starts and it grows
Getting old really blows
But where ever we go, I always know
that you'll make me smile
Closest friends for a while now
I'll treasure our time
where ever we go
You walked with me, through all the hurt and pain
Stayed by my side, never broke the chain
Your strength and love is what got me through
My dear sister it's because of you
Love starts and it grows
Some might come and might go
but whenever I'm low, I always know
that you'll make me smile
Make life more worthwhile now
You're there by my side
where ever I go
da da da da da da da da bu dum da dum da dum da da dum ...mmmmmm
Remember all things we use to do
Like, driving around till my engine blew
Your friendship is a gift and means the world to me
Such amazing history, wouldn't you agree
Our friendship...
starts in my soul
Giving God all control
When your by my side
I never hide
Cause you make me see
How a good sister should be
Holdin our hearts, where ever we go.
Where ever, where ever, where ever we go
Where ever, where ever, where ever we go...
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