Jayden Attila

Yesterday my baby (not so baby anymore) turned 4! 

 (I didn’t get a chance to write yesterday because I was away for the weekend and then… I didn’t want to be at the computer writing when I should be spending time with him on his actual birthday. So please forgive the lateness on this)

I can remember every detail of his birth like it was yesterday! Haha, but I won’t bore you with the gritty details in this post. If you really want to hear them you can just go read them here if you so wish to. 

We had a birthday party for him last week, which I will catch up on on later this week for all that ARE interested in knowing how that went and what I did.  However, I wanted to do my special post that I do each year for him first.  

To My Son...

Jayden Attila, 

My heart is so full when I think of the past four years. Your heart is so pure and so kind; a true gentleman even at the age of 4. You are a servant who loves to be a help. My heart skips a beat when you cheerfully ask to help with something I’m doing. You are so intelligent and your excitement for learning excites me! Your love for the Lord brings me to my knees, because YOU have taught me what it means to come to the Father like a child.

You, my son, are teaching me more than I feel I will ever be able to teach you at times. You love me unconditionally even on days I screw up royally, always reminding me how much you’ve forgiven my short comings and how much you love me by taking your little hands to my cheeks and getting me eye level with you and saying “You are a good mommy.” A mommy needs that, and your spirit knows exactly how to communicate that to me.

You are teaching me patience daily (which at times feels more like a battle). You are teaching me to lighten up and just have fun; which seeing how these past four years have flown by it's pretty important. You are teaching me to be kind and to be slow to anger. You are teaching me what the heart of a child is and how I need to come with that heart more often. Most important, you are teaching and growing me to be a better mommy.

I may fail you here and there at times, but know this… I promise to always love you and support your hopes and dreams. I promise to love you through the good times and bad and never judge you through your mistakes because I know we ALL make them! I promise to be your biggest fan and cheer you on in whatever you choose to do. I promise to raise you in knowing how wonderful the heavenly Father’s love, grace and mercy are for all of us. I promise to be the best mom I can be for you and your siblings.

God heard my cry for you even before you were born. You were and always will be a blessing to me and your father. You are a joy and a precious gift and I can not imagine life without you these past four years. I pray for you daily and pray for the man you will one day become. I pray for the life you will lead and the work you will do for the Lord. I pray for the woman that will one day steal your heart and for the marriage you will honor all the days of your life. I pray for the father I know you’ll one day be and the incredible influence you will be in their life. I pray for your destiny and your legacy and pray that God will always be the center of that.

Your life has just begun and God has great things in store for you. I know that one day you will be a wonderful and mighty man of God who will put his footprint into this world and make a difference for good. I see your strength and love for people; I see what God is already doing in your heart. I’m so honored that God chose me to raise you. I’m so proud of the little man I see growing in front of me daily and I’m so excited to see who you will become.

You are blessed!

Love,
Mommy
xoxoxoxox