Monday, September 14, 2009

Roller Coaster of a Weekend

I hope you all had a fantastic weekend! I don’t know about you, but around here it was pretty gloomy all day Friday and most of the day Saturday! Mr. Sun finally decided to show his wonderful face on Sunday to good old Chester County, PA. It was an absolutely beautiful day, even though I spent most of the time inside.

My weekend had some really great moments in it! We met some friend for dinner and had a blast! There is a picture with Jazmyne and Jayden below! Jayden couldn't stop holding her hand! :) Then my hubby and I went to the movies on Friday night; we also invited my mom and dad to come along! We saw the new Tim Burton movie, “9,” it was very good!!Saturday, my good friend Kasey asked me to go wedding dress shopping with her. I was also very excited when she asked me to be one of her bridesmaids. It was totally unexpected!!! I of course said YES! We had a blast looking for “the one,” and she got it! It’s so her! I took tons of pictures and will be posting them soon.

Saturday night I began to get into this funk of not feeling right. I didn’t know what it was, but I began to feel alone and really out of sorts. What is wrong with me? I had a great day and here I am so LOW. Maybe in some way I feel that things are so good… there must be something bad just around the corner. I decided to get my mind off of it and went to the movies by myself. Didn’t work so well, because the entire way home I cried!! I saw a freaking comedy people!!!

Sunday I woke up and could hardly get myself out of bed. I was sad, fearful, and believed a million lie I thought had been put to death. There was and is no reason for me to be feeling this way. I hate this feeling! I feel like there is nothing I can do but let the feeling pass. It’s hard to explain and not easy to understand. I think that this is my faith at its weakest! WHAT THE HECK!

Today seems to be going better though; other than this darn burn on the tip of my tongue that just won’t seem to go away. I know I just need to be more positive and know that it will all line up and be fine. I know it will… sometimes it just hard to walk it out.

Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer.

Thanks for all the great comments and encouragement you left on my last post about potty training. I’m really hoping that it works out and I’ll be sure to let you all know what happens. IF any of you have suggestions, I’m all up for ideas!!

I hope the rest of you had a great weekend and your week is filled with joy!

27 comments:

kels said...

awww lyr- i'm sorry you had/have to go through all that! i think that's when the devil tries to hit us the hardest... right when we feel on top of the world! don't let him win! you are wonderful and beautiful and a great wife and mother and sister and friend {from what i've read of you so far :)} and you deserve to be HAPPY! look to the Lord and He will bring you peace and comfort! don't believe the lies!

i'll be praying for you dear!

PaigeR530 said...

I'm so sorry to hear this!! That picture of Jayden is SO adorable, you should keep that with you at all times, because I would bet it would ALWAYS bring a smile to your face.

It's hard to get out of those funks once you sink in it. Don't let the enemy win! Hold onto that knot at the end of your rope and don't let go! Start climbing! :)

Kameron said...

Keep your face turned to the light even when you feel your heat is in the darkness. :o) I hope the feelings pass quickly and you get back to feeling better!

tinahead81 said...

i know exactly the type of "funk" you're in. they suck, and really just have to run their course. hey, we can't always be happy 100% of the time, right? do things that make you smile. :o) *hugs*

Abby said...

Nice to meet you, Lyr! Your little boy is a DOLL! I love the toilet paper pic ;) There's never a dull moment, huh???

Thanks for sharing your story and visiting!

morgan823 said...

Sometimes you just have to cry because you have too and clearly you needed to on your way home the other night! That doesn't make anything wrong with you, just makes you, you! :) I always cry when I feel the urge because sometimes it's just the best therapy there is. I must have missed your post on potty training. I'll read it and then see if I can help any since Emma is potty trained!

Jorden and Kristin said...

i'm sorry ot hear about your glum evening. it seems like those days hit me like you, right after a really good day. it's weird... i will be praying for you.i hope you get picked up and back together quickly! :)

Renae said...

Aww I'm sorry that you're feeling so down. You know that it's the attack of the devil, you just have to fight back. You are an amazing woman of God, a fantastic mother and wife. A wonderful friend and super-talented gal! Nothing he is feeding you is truth, he's just trying to get in your head. I'll be praying for ya!!!

Erin said...

I have those days where you feel like you should be left alone but really that isnt the right thing. I will be thinking about you. Hope your week goes better!

Ashley said...

What an adorable picture! :) Sorry to hear about your rough weekend. Praying your week goes better.

Sarah said...

Hate those days. Hope you shake it soon. A bubble bath always helps me "turn the frown upside down". :-)

Chelle*J said...
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thekirnancrib said...

Oh Lyryn, I can so identify with you... I often feel that when things are going well I can't enjoy them because something bad is going to inevitably happen. Have you ever heard Louie Giglio's "When Life Hurts the Most" sermon? Part 2 is on HOPE. It spoke to me probably more than pretty much any sermon I've ever heard. I tried to find it online... the beginning is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmJOko2Tygg
If you can find the rest I really recommend it. :)

Emily said...

Ugh, sorry you were not feeling like yourself today. I hate those days and just have to remind myself that I'm in control of my feelings they are not in control of me!
And wedding is shopping is soooo fun!!!
I'm just getting back into town and am trying to catch up on blogs, so I haven't read the potty training post yet, but I will hopefully get to it soon. P-training has been by far my biggest challenge as a parent!

Where My Treasure Is said...

Sounds like you've been busy!

I think I know what you're going through somewhat. There have been times when I just don't feel right, and this wave of anxiety and fear comes over me. It's like a mini depression.

Our pastor spoke Sunday about giving our troubles to God and not being fearful--boy did I need that sermon!!

I hope you feel better and that you come through this strengthened!

The Gardella's said...

Keeping you in my prayers. I hope you start to feel better soon.

Jennifer said...

I'm sorry you had a rough day. I find myself feeling the same way, too, sometimes. I wonder if more women feel like this, but just don't share?

Either way, I hope you're doing well today, and that your spirits are up. :-) (((HUGS)))

Amber said...

I feel your pain Lyr. I find myself in those moods too. I hope your feeling better! Prayers to you! : )

Carol said...

I'm sorry to hear that. But I love that pictures! So cute!

katie + bret said...

Oh my gosh! I love when kids hold hands/flirt/or kiss. TOO precious!

Lyr, I went through the same thing at the beginning of the year. It got to the point where Bret was really worried about me so I decided to see a counselor (not an easy thing to admit for a lot) and she helped. We talked about a few things, talked about my family history with depression, and we decided a low dose of meds would help. And boy has it!! I feel completely hole, little things don't bother me and I can just relax and enjoy life. I don't know if that is an option for you or that you would want to consider but it might help. Hang in there!

LeAnna said...

How fun that you're in a wedding! I'm a matron of honor in a December wedding and I have to say I'm looking forward to it, something exciting for a change. :) Sorry you've been in a funk, I get that way sometimes. I like what a previous commenter said, always keep your face turned to the Light even when you feel your heart is in the darkness. Praise God we have Jesus to lean on when we feel like toppling over. And...we know that if we DO topple over, He'll pick us back up. :) The righteous man falls seven times, but he gets back up, and that's a promise!

Tatiana said...

Lyr, I'm sorry you're going through this. Hang in there! I will be praying for you. I hope your week will be a lot better.
Your boy is one of the cutest kids I've ever seen though!!! Oh my word he is just way too precious!

Shay said...

We LOVED "9"!!!! It was so cute, and kind of sad!
Sorry your feeling down, I go through weird phases like that...when I dont have a reason for feeling how i feel. It makes me feel like a crazy person- so i blame it on hormones! =-)

Sare said...

Oh my sake!! potty training!!! GOOD LUCK!!!!

you okay hon?? I so n=know what you mean about just being in a funk...sometimes it just hits you. Are you okay??

MissJody said...

aw...I'm sorry sweetie.
I get into funks sometimes and it's hard to pull out!
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Very cute picture :)

Heather said...

I know how you feel and I hate feeling that way! Hang in there and I'll say a prayer for you!

Trina said...

I think everyone gets that way sometimes....or maybe I just do. I sometimes have a hard time enjoying the good for fear of something bad around the corner. I'm praying it passes quickly for you!

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