Monday, November 9, 2009

Convictions and A Prayer Request

I have seriously felt at my lowest of lows lately. Why is it that I always feel like this when I’m supposed to be at my happiest? I feel like I’m on this journey to find myself again, yet have none of the people in my life to stand by me like before. I feel lost and alone and trying desperately to understand what I did to find myself between this jagged rock and this steep cliff that I’m about fall off of. But still when all seems lost, God has a way of showing you that He’s here and how much He cares about you.

As I was crying like a baby in my car last night on the way home from a movie with my son; an Addison Road song came on called “Hope Now.” Needless to say, the tears certainly did not stop; in fact they got much worse. Conviction and dishonor rolled over me like a guilty wave. I have been so wrong and yet my merciful God gave me a gentle glimpse into why things have played out the way they have.

Though I feel so broken down and out of control, God is showing me that HE is the one walking me through it. Without Him, I am nothing! This song spoke to my heart more that I thought it could. Maybe it will speak to yours today as well.

Hope Now
If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of
When I call out Your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I'm Yours

I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I'll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

I am not my own
I've been carried by you all my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

You've become my heart’s desire
I will sing Your praises higher
Cause Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

Also, if you could keep me in prayer I would really appreciate it. As you can see from the picture below I am already showing. This is not because I am farther along that I though; it’s because I have an umbilical hernia that has grown much larger since my last pregnancy. (Honestly, I’m quite embarrassed that I’m showing so soon even though I showed quickly last time) Since growing it has also become a little more painful than before. So please pray that is stays manageable through this pregnancy. Thank you and I hope you all have a blessed week!


44 comments:

Jessica said...

I will keep you in my prayers. Keep your head up!

The creative housewife said...

I will most certainly keep you in our prayers!

Try and do your best to keep positive!

The Lord has his amazing ways to make things work out every time!

*Hugs*
-The creative housewife*

Mrs. A said...

thinking good thoughts and sending prayers and hugs to you sweet friend.

PaigeR530 said...

Sending love and prayers your way dear!

morgan823 said...

I have been out of touch with the blogging world since last week since I had Brooks but I must have missed you were pregnant. CONGRATULATIONS. I'll have to go back and see if I missed the post. I will keep you in my prayers.

Kyle and Amy said...

Hello Blogging Friend! I am totally going to commit your pregnancy to prayer and I promise to pray that the Lord will wrap His loving arms around you and you will be ok! My Husband and I are desperately trying to have a baby and the scare that my Endometriosis could return at any point, causes me to worry every single day that we will not be able to conceive. I am in chronic daily pain most days but it is when we are in need of strength the most that we realize how truly amazing our God is! We do not need to worry! The Bible teaches us not to worry! So we must trust in the Lord and in His ability to provide for us and for our families. I will fervently be praying for you my sweet friend and I hope that you know that you've got a friend in me!

Praying for you,
Amy in GA

Kyle and Amy said...

Hello Blogging Friend! I am totally going to commit your pregnancy to prayer and I promise to pray that the Lord will wrap His loving arms around you and you will be ok! My Husband and I are desperately trying to have a baby and the scare that my Endometriosis could return at any point, causes me to worry every single day that we will not be able to conceive. I am in chronic daily pain most days but it is when we are in need of strength the most that we realize how truly amazing our God is! We do not need to worry! The Bible teaches us not to worry! So we must trust in the Lord and in His ability to provide for us and for our families. I will fervently be praying for you my sweet friend and I hope that you know that you've got a friend in me!

Praying for you,
Amy in GA

Jennifer said...

Praying for you sweet girl!! I'm about to email you!

Kyle and Amy said...

Hello Blogging Friend! I am totally going to commit your pregnancy to prayer and I promise to pray that the Lord will wrap His loving arms around you and you will be ok! My Husband and I are desperately trying to have a baby and the scare that my Endometriosis could return at any point, causes me to worry every single day that we will not be able to conceive. I am in chronic daily pain most days but it is when we are in need of strength the most that we realize how truly amazing our God is! We do not need to worry! The Bible teaches us not to worry! So we must trust in the Lord and in His ability to provide for us and for our families. I will fervently be praying for you my sweet friend and I hope that you know that you've got a friend in me!

Praying for you,
Amy in GA

Kyle and Amy said...

Ok wow I have NO idea why my post is posted multiple times! Sorry about that!

Katie said...

oh yes you definitely are showing ;) I thought so yesterday but it was hard to tell with your clothes. I'll be praying the pain and other issues with it cease!

xo.

Brandi said...

I'm so sorry you are having a rough time.

Don't be embarrassed at all... that is a GORGEOUS baby bump. You look like you're a pretty tiny gal anyway so you'll, of course, show a lot sooner. I showed really quick with my second and with my 3rd, by 6 weeks I felt like I had to walk around telling everyone I was pregnant or else they would think I was fat.

Wear it proud. It's such a gift. I will keep you in my prayers. ;)

Ashley said...

I will definitely keep you in my prayers. I have never heard of that before, but I will be praying for a healthy pregnany and no pain! How far along are you?

Jorden and Kristin said...

yay! cute bump! sorry your having pain with it though!

I'm praying that your pain goes away both physically and emotionally!

If there is anything I can do just let me know!

Jessica said...

Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way.

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

i'm sorry you are having to go through all of that! I will definitely be praying for you! and you look so cute, don't let showing early worry you at all cute mama! (i showed early too especially with my second so i know what you mean, but your bump (and you) is adorable, so no worrying about it=))

Renae said...

Aww Lyr I'm sorry you have to go through that. I will def. be praying for you! Also, are you in a Bible study or anything? If not, it's something to consider, it's encouraging to be able to confide with a few gals who can pray with you. If you ever need anyone to talk too let me know!

Shay said...

Your definitely in my prayers Lyryn. Keep us updated.

Alicia said...

Yes, with Jesus, we are never alone.

I'll be praying for you!!

Mrs P said...

Lots of prayers that you start feeling better and your pregnancy goes smoothly. Your little bump is so cute and nothing to be ashamed about, no matter how soon your showing!!

Jules said...

sending you hugs and prayers!

Suzi said...

oh goodness, i hope that everything starts to look up soon... i will certainly keep you in my prayers, for both your mental and physical health! God is so good and He will provide all that you need, my friend! sending lots of love your way from Dallas!

renee said...

hang in there, lyr. praying!

Brittany Ann said...

Praying for you, sweet friend!

Jax said...

Sending blog love, hugs, kind thoughts...and of course many prayers.

Meredith said...

How in the world did I miss that you are pregnant?! CONGRATS, and I'll keep you in prayer!

Laura said...

I will put you in my prayers. I hope everything starts looking up for you soon.

Kerry said...

I'm so sorry you're feeling low! Just think of this amazing pregnancy you've been blessed with :) xxx

Melissa G. said...

Sending a big HUG and prayers your way today!

The Booth Family said...

I know exactly what you mean. i had a rough time with my emotions for the first part of my pregnancy this time but life is good! I also have an umbilical hernia and trust me! Yours looks WAY better than mine. Mine is huge and bulges gross! I am getting it repaired with this prgnancy thank goodness! Hope things look up for you! You and your family are in my prayers.

Fields of Gold said...

(((HUGS))) Praying for you!

Nathan and Whitney said...

I will definately keep you in my prayers. I hope things stay manageable for you!

Terri said...

praying for you! hugs!

{Kimber} said...

Praying {{Hugs}}

Leslie G said...

Praying for you- for whatever you are going through. Praying that you will rise above!

Alicia said...

Sending prayers your way!

Becca said...

I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. I will keep me in your prayers. You are absolutely adorable!

Tina said...

I just read your last post. I too have been struggeling with many things...believe it or not, but your post gave me hope. Thanks for sharing that song, it touched me tonight as I read. We both have Hope, and we both have God, we will make it through our difficult times with HIM. Blessings to you and your baby..
Tina W.

Kassie said...

I'll be praying that everything stays healthy for you and baby!!

LucieP said...

hi! congrats! i missed that post! ;)
A friend had a hernia too that ended up needing to be operated on. I will say a prayer for you!!

What did Big Brother think? I was wondering if you ever posted how potty training went as far as what you did specifically??

Rachel H. said...

Sending hugs your way! We'll be thinking of you and praying for you during this time! :)

Elizabeth said...

OMG....Congratulations! :) I have been so bad lately with getting on my blog and reading everyone elses!! :)

Trina said...

Thanks for sharing those lyrics. I love Addison Road.

Bless your heart sweetie! Saying a prayer for you. I've never heard of that before. :(

The Bilslands said...

Hi there! I just recently found your blog... Those lyrics are amazing, I will def. have to listen to that song. I am pregnant right now too (33 weeks) and we are definitely going through a trying time!

God is always bigger than our circumstances, praying for you and your family! =)