I STRONGLY believe in Jeremiah 29:11 and I know God has something up his sleeve for me, but what is it and am I doing it now?! Because if I am… I feel like I’m failing at it miserably. There are many days I have to discipline Jayden multiple times a day, which almost always leave him in tears. Am I the only person who makes my child cry daily?! Mommy Failure!
There are days I don’t give my husband the attention I know he needs because I just don’t have it in me to try. Wife failure! A girl can only take failure so much and then she starts to wonder if any of this matters anymore. I know… I’m being a little hard on myself. I tend to do that a lot and see the bad before I see any of the good (bad character trait) but it is something the Lord has been working on in me.
A few weeks back I was really wrestling with the thought of “Does any of this matter?” I wanted something more than just my day-to-day kind of life, even threw around the idea that maybe a job would be better for me. As I went before the Lord and pleaded my case He reminded me of a time back when I was working and felt incredibly undervalued. He reminded me of something my best friend (who worked with me at the time) said. She told me that no matter what we do we should always do it as we were doing it for the Lord. Whether it be missions, dance, singing, or working at our jobs, we are to always bring glory to Him. (1 Corinthians 10:31)
The very next day I heard Steve Curtis Chapman’s “Do Everything” song on the radio. I had heard it a hundred times before but this time I felt like it was speaking to me. Not only did I realize that I wasn’t the only person in the world to feel this way (uh duh), I also felt such a conviction about the attitude I had been throwing around lately.
There are a lot of people in the world who “wonder” if what they are doing even matters. It is what those people do with that feeling that really matters. Everything we DO should be to glorify God. THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS and that’s all that should matter. Somehow I forgot that conversation I had years back with my BFF. I'm thankful the Lord reminded me. There will be days I will fail, but I’m going to try a heck of a lot harder to be happy with what God has called me to do, and bring glory to Him as I do it.
“Do everything you do to the Glory of the One who made you. To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face, and tell the story of grace with every move that you make. In every little thing you do.” - Steve Curtis Chapman