Sunday, July 20, 2008

Love does not Boast, and is not Proud

It’s so hard to admit when you’re wrong! In my close-minded mind, I’m always right and I will fight you tooth and nail to prove it to you. There are some people I will bend to quicker than others, but to the ones who know me best … it’s a battle to the death! And most of the time in only ends in hurt and sadness. So why do I keep doing this if it causes so much hurt?


It’s something that I have struggle with for a long time, and hurts the relationships that I’m in. My pride just gets the better of me sometimes; I know my faults and I know how I fail, but it’s even harder to hear it from people you love.My mom always says to me “Lyryn, you can’t hear the truth.” And then I get mad at her for saying it! The reason I get so mad, is because it’s so true. Well Mom, I hear you… I get it… your only speaking truth.

As most of you know, these past few months have been super hard. And I know a big part of that has been because of this huge thing called pride and self control in my life. Why must I always have the last word? Why do I need to pick a fight about the dishes? Is it really worth all the fighting? And if I didn’t get my point across that day it would be 100 times worst the next. Life can be over whelming when you deal with this all day! And for some reason I couldn’t see or accept that I was treating people this way all because my pride stood in the way! I couldn’t even been corrected by family member about the way I talked to my husband. How in the world have I been walking in love? I haven’t, which explains a lot about where I a now.

Slowly but surly, I’m understanding the ins and outs of little old me. The truth is sometimes is really hard to hear, but how can you grow if your unwilling to hear the truth and change. And if we are unwilling to hear truth from our own family members, how are we ever going to hear truth from God. If you can’t accept what the people who love you the most are saying about you, you’re not going to be able to accept what your Father in heaven has to say? I would really encourage you to take a good look at your life and see if there is a part of you that prideful and can’t hear truth from the people who love you most, you might be surprised … I was.


hadassah said...

Lyryn, I want you to know that I'm so proud of you and how you've grown... I can see God working in you, and it's awesome... Just know that I love you and I miss you...

Jeremiah said...

I love you babe. You rock my world whenever I think about how awesome its been to have you in my life. I look forward to the future as the Lord has been pruning so many of our lives down to the roots of what makes us who we are. Thank you for simply, being.