As I slowly broke down the verse into each individual phrase, I began to realize how perfect God’s love was and how imperfect I was at loving. I wanted to write down what God was showing me, so I started blogging about it. I worked my way through Love is Patient and then through Love is Kind. Then walked my way through Love Does Not Envy. The last blog post I wrote about these verses was Love Does not Boast or is Not Proud. As I dug into the Word, I found myself more and more convicted by the words of my Savior. I didn’t realize how much I failed at true love!
Though it has taken me a year to come back to it, I feel the need to finish. Which brings me to today’s topic “Love is Not Self Seeking.” Mr. Dictionary tell us that the definition of self seeking is “The act or habit of seeking one's own interest or happiness; selfishness.”
Ok… I am now going to take a brief moment to stop and R-E-A-L-L-Y think about what I’m going to say next because I really don’t want any word vomit to spew from my mouth before wisdom has had a chance to settle. Here is a cute music video of Mercy Me singing "So Long Self." How appropriate!
There are a million things I could say about this type of love and how I don’t believe that anyone but Jesus is capable of walking it out as Paul described when he wrote this verse. I believe Paul saw what selfishness could do to the world; he saw what it was doing to the world. I too have seen first hand what selfishness can do. I have seen it hurt people in ways you cannot imagine and have watched selfishness so consume people that they completely believe all the lies the enemy has fed to them. But who am I to judge; have I not been selfish in my life time? Is this really too much of Paul to be asking of us?
Can you honestly say that you have never had a selfish motive and carried it out? Or refused to do something good because you just don't feel like it? Because… I KNOW I HAVE! I am a girl that likes to be comfortable. I can’t stand confrontation, so I’ll do almost anything to avoid those situations. I love my sleep, so I’ll ask my darling husband to get up with Jayden so I can sleep in just a little bit longer! In all three of these examples I acted in selfishness!!
Unfortunately when the fall of man occurred and Adam and Eve took that bite from that fruit, (not that I’m blaming them for my actions) a lot of the “pure at heart” characteristics fell away from them. It’s a constant battle for most of us to fight the natural instinct to look out for one's self. Even Jeremiah 17:9 says that “The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked. Who can understand it?” Not that people can’t be selfless, they can! There are so many in this world who will die to themselves daily and put other people’s needs before their own. But... it's still a battle! (2 Corinthians 4:11-12)
Though I still fall short and put my own selfish desires before others, I do want to be more like my Jesus everyday. Paul was right, true love isn’t self seeking. Jesus committed the most selfless act one can by giving up his life for all of humanity. He embodies what Paul was talking about in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 and I want to love like that.