Friday, October 2, 2009

Where-oh-Where Have I been?

I have seriously been MIA from the blog world lately. Though it stinks to be so behind, I believe it has been a good thing for me to take a break from it and get all my priorities in order. I love writing, I have a passion for it and someday I want to do something more with it. I want to touch people’s lives through my words and show them that they aren’t alone through life’s struggles and challenges, along with it’s joys and successes, but I believe that I have taken this dream and focused much of my energy in the wrong direction.

Unfortunately I feel that a lot of the blogging I have done has been done for the wrong reasons. During the past three months I have lost my way and have become selfish and prideful over my blog. I have made some pretty dumb choices along the way and I most certainly have reaped the consequences of some of them. I have slammed head on to a path that has not been focused on the more important priorities in my life and I most certainly feel the repercussion of taking that selfish road and not being obedient to God’s voice.

Through this season, I’m learning that pride is a dangerous path to walk. When I walk down that road I am trusting on my own abilities rather than trusting the in Father’s. I also find that I come to regard other people with contempt and disrespect rather then seeing them as my equal and created in God’s image (2 Philippians 2:3). My pride has exposed a weakness I have. This is not who I want to be; I want to walk down the road of righteousness and know that what I have done has been only to glorify God (Matthew 23:12).

So with all of that said my dear friends and blogger buddies, I felt it was necessary to step away from blogging for just a little while since it was what has been monopolizing so much of my time and focus these past few months. For those that truly read my blog because you are genuinely interested in it and may even feel inspired by it at times, I thank you. You are the ones that make me love writing and inspire me to expand more as a writer. My heart isn’t to share the “all about me” parts of my life, but the moments where even I have to look back and challenge myself on something I have written.

Proverbs 15:33, “The fear of the Lord is the instruction of wisdom, and before honor is humility.” So I must lay down my pride, start walking in humility and trusting that God will walk with me, yet again, through this season. Continue to undo me Lord…



30 comments:

Susan said...

well written and straight from the heart. i appreciate your honesty! and i absolutely LOVE that song... so good!

Mrs. A said...

I admire your honesty and determination for a greater purpose.

One of many reasons why I left you an award on my blog :)

Katie said...

I'm OBSESSED WITH THAT SONG!! :) It was a workcamp song! lol.

love love love ittttt

xoxo

and love you

Jessica said...

Welcome back. You are so very honest in your writing.

Kelsey @ Seattle Smith's said...

I also find myself spending a lot of time blogging, but find so much joy in meeting wonderful people like yourself. I enjoy getting sincere comments from you and reading your blog, which is why I am glad you're back!

PaigeR530 said...

You always have such heartfelt things to say, and I have certainly missed your posts lately! I'm glad you are back, your blog is one of my absolute favorites! Sending love to you today!

Shay said...

I love this song.
I know how you feel about blogging taking time away. Which is why I am "fasting" from FB right now. It really does take too much time out of my life, and away from God & my family. Break's are always good! Im glad you were able to realize what was going on & what you need to do =-)
Thank you for all of the encouragement!

Suzi said...

Your honesty is SO refreshing... I have a lot of the same struggles so it is a nice reminder to me! Glad you are back :)

Jennifer said...

I'm glad you took time out for yourself. This week has been like that for me as well. I'm finding that blogging is such a time intensive activity, it's too easy to lose focus on what really matters in life! I'm glad you've found your path again!

Annie said...

welcome back hun! :)
i think it's great that you took time for yourself. i love reading your blog and i find your writing inspirational, i think you are a real, honest person and you express that in your writing. you share your life with us and that is not always easy. you are a strong lady and i love following you.
i hope all is well hun, have a great weekend!! xo

Mrs Bee said...

Welcome back my lovely.

Pop over to my blog, I have an award over there for you!

Big love.
x

Emily said...

Thank you for this post. It's so refreshing to hear such complete honesty, and what you said about pride is a great reminder! It's always a good thing to be re-grounded, and to remember that we aren't living for ourselves- we're living for God.

Welcome back!

Stephanie said...

What a heartfelt post. We've missed you!

Lilly, Matt, and Sara said...

Welcome back!

Renee and Brandon said...

I will miss reading. But even this post put some thoughts in my head....my husband has pointed out my time I spend on the computer takes away from family time, devotional time, prayer time. It's nice to hear from someone else that it's true how much time it does take away. Thanks for that reminder.

Alicia said...

Wonderful post! This speaks to so many of us. It's easy to get caught up in blogging and feeling like you have to "keep up." Good for you, my friend!

Melissa G. said...

Glad to have you back. But i agree that some times we need to step back from things and prioritize what we put our energy into.

Katelyn said...

I understand what you mean. So much, not just my blog, has taken on such a self-absorbed mentality. It is a constant mental battle to try to align myself with God, but I'm hoping it will prove to become easier as I practice it more.

Thank you for your vulnerable post.

Kristin Williams Balla said...

I am so proud to be your mother. And I love that video!

Tatiana said...

Your writing is always so honest and heart felt. I totally know what you mean, too. Thank you for the post. It's really hard to be honest with ourselves and actually put God first before everything else. I am so grateful for bloggers like you :-)

Sare said...

I am obviously not the only one who comes to you for strength and inspriation and hope. I hope you are finding your path less cluttered as you strive to do the Lord's will for you!!! Lots of love hon!

Heather said...

Love your posts and glad you are back. I have been thinking of taking time away from the blog to get my priorities in line too! great post and thanks for sharing your heart!

chelsea said...

what a wonderfully direct statement cutting through any BS. Thanks for inspiring me to write for bigger reasons, and keep writing yourself! It is times like this, when you can touch many with your words, to remind you writing can be as beneficial as you want it to be!

katie + bret said...

:)

Lovely and honest post!

Welcome back

xx

Terri said...

I love how transparent you are! I read your blog because you are one of few blogs who, in my opinion, don't sugar-coat things. I'm inspired by you - really! ;) I think I found your blog through Trina's blog, and so glad I did! Keep writing! :)

R. Wallis @ TrueBeauty said...

Oh I love Rush of Fools...especially this song! Glad your back and recharged :)

Tellie said...

Glad to hear you have your priorities in order, but have missed reading you in the blog world. Look forward to your return!

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

this was a great post girl! beautifully written and i think we can all relate! glad you're back, I look forward to reading!!

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

this was a great post girl! beautifully written and i think we can all relate! glad you're back, I look forward to reading!!

LucieP said...

so how is it going now that you've been back for a couple weeks?

I think our path always contains some "straying" moments so we can cling back to what really matters.

I do love your writing and it does inspire me. :)