I have seriously been MIA from the blog world lately. Though it stinks to be so behind, I believe it has been a good thing for me to take a break from it and get all my priorities in order. I love writing, I have a passion for it and someday I want to do something more with it. I want to touch people’s lives through my words and show them that they aren’t alone through life’s struggles and challenges, along with it’s joys and successes, but I believe that I have taken this dream and focused much of my energy in the wrong direction.
Unfortunately I feel that a lot of the blogging I have done has been done for the wrong reasons. During the past three months I have lost my way and have become selfish and prideful over my blog. I have made some pretty dumb choices along the way and I most certainly have reaped the consequences of some of them. I have slammed head on to a path that has not been focused on the more important priorities in my life and I most certainly feel the repercussion of taking that selfish road and not being obedient to God’s voice.
Through this season, I’m learning that pride is a dangerous path to walk. When I walk down that road I am trusting on my own abilities rather than trusting the in Father’s. I also find that I come to regard other people with contempt and disrespect rather then seeing them as my equal and created in God’s image (2 Philippians 2:3). My pride has exposed a weakness I have. This is not who I want to be; I want to walk down the road of righteousness and know that what I have done has been only to glorify God (Matthew 23:12).
So with all of that said my dear friends and blogger buddies, I felt it was necessary to step away from blogging for just a little while since it was what has been monopolizing so much of my time and focus these past few months. For those that truly read my blog because you are genuinely interested in it and may even feel inspired by it at times, I thank you. You are the ones that make me love writing and inspire me to expand more as a writer. My heart isn’t to share the “all about me” parts of my life, but the moments where even I have to look back and challenge myself on something I have written.
Proverbs 15:33, “The fear of the Lord is the instruction of wisdom, and before honor is humility.” So I must lay down my pride, start walking in humility and trusting that God will walk with me, yet again, through this season. Continue to undo me Lord…